東京からおはやございます!Good morning from Tokyo!

東京に来て もう 3週間です。 やはり、二、三日の 旅行と違いますね。
住む 周辺に 外国人も多く、そのためか 誰にも 特別な目で 見られる事もなく、とっても 気が楽です。自転車を買い、近くの用事を 済ますに大助かり!
ここに来て分かった事は 鳥取に居ると 絶えず、自分が 誰とも異なる事であったので 何時も誰かに見られ、 気が休まる事がありませんでした。しんどかったです。
六本木にある 外国人の為の 教会に 行って来ました。英語で おミサを行う、とっても フレンドリーな教会でした。 初めて来た人を 全員立たせ(恥ずかしい)自己紹介をさせて 全員に歓迎の 拍手をして貰う。しかし、それぐらいじゃないと・・・・・
早速、鳥取カトリック教会から移籍の手続きをします。今から 思うけど 鳥取の教会を長く(20年)通っても 私を容認してくれても 心から私を受けられた事は 無かった。新しい神父様に 冷たくされて、我慢が出来ないと 思い、行かなくなってから誰かも 連絡は なかった。 真の キリスト教と 私は 思いません。
毎日、本と文との 奮闘が 始まりました。始まったばかりに 何が書けるかと

思います・・・でも、シドニー大学の教授の 言葉を 思いだし「何でも良いから 書くところから 始めるんだ・・・書いたら 見えてくる」最初 言われた事、「出来ない」と 思いましたけど・・・さすがに 初めて見ると 見えてきますね!昨日だけで 新しい発見がありました・・・
今日は 大学で 他のドクターコースの学生 2人と アメリカに居る教授と スカイプで ゼミ・・・どんなもんでしょう??
頑張って来ます・・・・
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It is now 3 weeks since I moved to Tokyo. Life is different when you take up residence and are not just visiting for a few days.
There are many foreigners and tourists in the area where I live, no one looks at me and no one cares, it makes life so much more enjoyable for me. Now, I understand how hard it was being in Tottori, where I was ALWAYS watched ( particularly by the old man who stalked the entrance of my house, making it hard for me just come home and leave my house), to be honest there was never a time when I can could relax. Well, how about home then? In Japan there are always people making deliveries to your home, another visit that always reminds you that you are different.
I attended the English Mass in Roppongi at the Franciscan Chapel Center. It must be the friendliest and liveliest church I have ever visited. All visitors were asked to stand and introduce ourselves, a nerve racking experience but it shows that people care. I will be moving my membership to the church, good bye Tottori where you tolerated me but never accepted me. It is only now that I realize how cold it all seemed. I was a regular attendee for over 20 years, and on and off for 10 years as I had to commute to Australia, then my favourite priest passed away and a Japanese priest came. Well….I tried, but he was just plain cold, so I walked away, I deserve better……sadly after all of that time at the church, no one ever bothered to contact me and ask how I was, my absence was conveniently interpreted as being away in Australia. Oh well….I have found somewhere where I can feel at home.
I have started my research with lots and lots of reading. I have also started ( little steps) to write…. I remember my supervisor at Sydney Uni saying “write, write and write, then you will start to things more clearly”!….how wise! I have found a few interesting angles already.
Today I am off to my first seminar for doctoral students….a Skype seminar with our supervisor who is in the US on sabbatical. Quite excited….

 

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